Say You Love Me

Some nights I’m hardly myself
There’s only pain needing to be felt and words waiting to be heard
Always stuck thinking I believe too much, but I carry my hopes that I’m not alone
Then, I slowly blink and surely everything’s gone
I fight not to feel it all so deep,
I try not to feel at all
But I’m stuck with memories in my mind
that won’t let me sleep
It feels like demons in my lungs,
it gets so hard to breathe
I try hard to hold off the questions
but I feel the urgency
Where is the trust and all the love I gave away?
Why do I fill this glass to forget about my day?
I numb the feeling when I’m just too weak
New bad habits, but sometimes it’s unbearable
And for a moment I’d rather choose to fall apart
Than be as strong as I always pretend to be
Today, I’m just a person whose been cut to deep
And I’d rather scream and hurt outloud
than try to hide my lowest lows
I’m only human and I need you to know