Say You Love Me

I’ve never felt this afraid

I listen to the words we never say

The laughter and drinks can’t fix it

But for a little while we’ll pretend nothing happened

Until next week and it feels hopeless again

Outsiders see love, I see it for what it is

I wonder if my father only sleeps to forget

That my mother is angry and finds it hard to forgive

I know she gives us all everything she has

But I can feel her go and I need to bring her back

Don’t we all want to get away from life’s pains

Running away won’t change anything

Some days it’s so cold being back in this place

But I thank God for the child that lights up a dark space

What else would hold any of us together

I see holding it in hasn’t made us any better

I always find myself trying to speak up

But maybe I’ll never know enough

And I wonder if I’m too naive

Because I believe that family will stay even when they want to leave