I fondly remember the good moments. I appreciate them all the more now. Losing… finally losing what I thought I had has made me want to hold on tighter to all the better parts of what was. Every soul shattering ending has eventually taught me to be grateful for what I have and what I had. It took a while but I don’t want to be in a dark place any longer when it comes to love and those I have loved with all my heart.
It’s really so exhausting to keep reliving the bad parts and endings, and I know it has to end somewhere. Why not here? I have the power to make that decision. So it ends when I make up my mind to focus on more than a fraction of this bittersweet story. It ends when I decide to live with gratitude and accept this situation for what it is. It ends when I stop giving too much attention to every negative emotion. It’s surely not what I wanted. Still, it is what it is. But it wasn’t all bad. And I won’t glorify the good too much either because I know how that goes, but I can learn to find a balance. I can tell myself that it was good and it was bad, and it was also everything I wanted once upon a time. There was so much happiness that filled my empty spaces once. I can’t forget that. I’ll choose to hold on to that. Now, there’s so much more room for greater inside. More love, more happiness, more understanding. Somehow my big, broken heart has only gotten bigger. Thanks to all those good people (also assholes at times) who ripped it wide open. Today, I’ll love harder and smarter, and it’ll be the greatest magic in the world.
Continue to love.
Continue to forgive.
Continue to grow.
One response to “Thorns and Roses”
Wise thoughts and words.
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